Be Yourself

Hi!!!My name is Chelsea Mu and I'M 20 years old this year.So I got a story for you out there is an idea that I decided to write about my life is based on FriendZone that can change my life about trusting love.
Well in my life I only have tell my feelings to one guy .I think i was 13 years old that time and the guy that i have crush was my senior and he wasnt a good looking guy but i think I fall in love with him maybe cuz of his spirituality towards to God.But he rejected after the all school knows i like him:(But is ok at that age at least i know what is rejection and also i still say Hi to him when I meet him.Come on,I a half grown up!! .So in that same year I have a crush on another that I never tell my feeling towards him but my action shows ...Well when I asked for his number he said  that he have no cellphone only use house phone.So in my mind oh wow it was 2006.That was a perfect lie:)Cuz he was giving my friend his number to her and it was a cellphone number!!!Just say No!!!Bro u want I hit u with a cattle bell!!Hahaha Just joking !!Wont do that cuz  I know the type a girl he likes 'Breadsticks '..Or it other terms Super Models...For 2 years i like him,i feel so bad for my first BF and I dump the guy not because of I like the guy it because I am not ready and that guy was too mature for me but Blessed him now cuz we is dating my friend for 6 years now ^^.So this guy seriously ;I like him so much till 2010 i saw his dating his super model.I didnt see him a year I move to other places cuz he got bunch of friends cailling me names.I am so f***ing hurt .Cuz it was unfair i think..Cuz I am fat!!!And she was so Breadstick and Super Model!!Then another years of depress then in the same year I got a bf that was a year younger and it was long distance relationship I never see him only talk and text through phone.But still disconnected with him after a month.in the same year people called me 'Labi-labi' and dugong cuz i am so UGLY!!!.So on 2011,is my first year as a Form 6 student.0 crush on any guys literally but shit happens the internet make so 'famous' and article about me :)Cailling me the names like FAT, and ETC...So I was depress of course but I act dumb cuz I am a Pre- U school so I must think like Pre-U students instead of a 5 year old level.So that how i go through my life at school I just dont care about the article:)And on 2012 was the most life changing year!!!I had it when people called me Fat!!So what I do?Hit the gym baby so literally I gain 12kg in one year from 2011-2012 ,I am 73-85 kg:(.Everybody called me Fat.So one fine day ,i went to City Mall then I go into this place called 'Core Fitness' and i see all those classes seems awesome so after 2 days visiting that place .I cant help to go register there as a member:)So the first class I join was Body Combat ok and it was Martial Arts mixture and it was so tiring for me.OMG I cant even do a sit up and a push up... so for the next 3 weeks i do claasses like Power Stretch,Body Combat and Abs work.But then I get bored...So one fine day I go to the ground floor then I saw a cycling class so I join.One time and I am hooked!!:)It was awesome then on July I started join RPM and I meet this guy and I asked him dude did u wear a sport bra.His like No...and that guy was now a RPM instructor.So I been Doing RPM almost a year and 75% of my weight loss was from there:)And I slowly go for Cross Fits but 2 months only but I can see my body was like magic that I cant believe I can carry more weights!!!And I started to loss weight again.Whee!!!So i have donated so many shirts and pants and also .My dream of having a Breadstick OR Supermodel figure was vanished,In my mind i was look FIT!!And that was awesome.I love to have abs and muscles around my body .so from a 85kg-68kg it was awesome.U know how awesome that feel!!!Feel strong..So one day I saw the guy gf or ex gf(FYI,I dont know the are still together or not)   .So I look at her then I smiled cuz she was weaker than me.I look at her can that women do 100 burpees,can she even do RPM :)But after one month she wasnt at the gym anymore.But I really hope she stays cuz she need to look fit:)So my message to all the people out there,Just be your self and discover is good have a motivation to look beautiful or hot..But is better u discover ur own beauty in ur healthy way!!So to all the teens out there is u are still under 18 please dont starve yourself and dont take any diet supplement!!!Ur body need food if u scare of being fat then go for an exercise.One simple move can change everything!!!
I hope my story didnt also hurt for the smaller size people but still i high recommend u all go some exercise just to stay more healthier and gain more muscles .BTW,girls muscles build up very slow unless u take extremely hard core protein shakes.Thanks for ready.
(Sorry my english grammar sucks!!)