Be Yourself

Hi!!!My name is Chelsea Mu and I'M 20 years old this year.So I got a story for you out there is an idea that I decided to write about my life is based on FriendZone that can change my life about trusting love.
Well in my life I only have tell my feelings to one guy .I think i was 13 years old that time and the guy that i have crush was my senior and he wasnt a good looking guy but i think I fall in love with him maybe cuz of his spirituality towards to God.But he rejected after the all school knows i like him:(But is ok at that age at least i know what is rejection and also i still say Hi to him when I meet him.Come on,I a half grown up!! .So in that same year I have a crush on another that I never tell my feeling towards him but my action shows ...Well when I asked for his number he said  that he have no cellphone only use house phone.So in my mind oh wow it was 2006.That was a perfect lie:)Cuz he was giving my friend his number to her and it was a cellphone number!!!Just say No!!!Bro u want I hit u with a cattle bell!!Hahaha Just joking !!Wont do that cuz  I know the type a girl he likes 'Breadsticks '..Or it other terms Super Models...For 2 years i like him,i feel so bad for my first BF and I dump the guy not because of I like the guy it because I am not ready and that guy was too mature for me but Blessed him now cuz we is dating my friend for 6 years now ^^.So this guy seriously ;I like him so much till 2010 i saw his dating his super model.I didnt see him a year I move to other places cuz he got bunch of friends cailling me names.I am so f***ing hurt .Cuz it was unfair i think..Cuz I am fat!!!And she was so Breadstick and Super Model!!Then another years of depress then in the same year I got a bf that was a year younger and it was long distance relationship I never see him only talk and text through phone.But still disconnected with him after a month.in the same year people called me 'Labi-labi' and dugong cuz i am so UGLY!!!.So on 2011,is my first year as a Form 6 student.0 crush on any guys literally but shit happens the internet make so 'famous' and article about me :)Cailling me the names like FAT, and ETC...So I was depress of course but I act dumb cuz I am a Pre- U school so I must think like Pre-U students instead of a 5 year old level.So that how i go through my life at school I just dont care about the article:)And on 2012 was the most life changing year!!!I had it when people called me Fat!!So what I do?Hit the gym baby so literally I gain 12kg in one year from 2011-2012 ,I am 73-85 kg:(.Everybody called me Fat.So one fine day ,i went to City Mall then I go into this place called 'Core Fitness' and i see all those classes seems awesome so after 2 days visiting that place .I cant help to go register there as a member:)So the first class I join was Body Combat ok and it was Martial Arts mixture and it was so tiring for me.OMG I cant even do a sit up and a push up... so for the next 3 weeks i do claasses like Power Stretch,Body Combat and Abs work.But then I get bored...So one fine day I go to the ground floor then I saw a cycling class so I join.One time and I am hooked!!:)It was awesome then on July I started join RPM and I meet this guy and I asked him dude did u wear a sport bra.His like No...and that guy was now a RPM instructor.So I been Doing RPM almost a year and 75% of my weight loss was from there:)And I slowly go for Cross Fits but 2 months only but I can see my body was like magic that I cant believe I can carry more weights!!!And I started to loss weight again.Whee!!!So i have donated so many shirts and pants and also .My dream of having a Breadstick OR Supermodel figure was vanished,In my mind i was look FIT!!And that was awesome.I love to have abs and muscles around my body .so from a 85kg-68kg it was awesome.U know how awesome that feel!!!Feel strong..So one day I saw the guy gf or ex gf(FYI,I dont know the are still together or not)   .So I look at her then I smiled cuz she was weaker than me.I look at her can that women do 100 burpees,can she even do RPM :)But after one month she wasnt at the gym anymore.But I really hope she stays cuz she need to look fit:)So my message to all the people out there,Just be your self and discover is good have a motivation to look beautiful or hot..But is better u discover ur own beauty in ur healthy way!!So to all the teens out there is u are still under 18 please dont starve yourself and dont take any diet supplement!!!Ur body need food if u scare of being fat then go for an exercise.One simple move can change everything!!!
I hope my story didnt also hurt for the smaller size people but still i high recommend u all go some exercise just to stay more healthier and gain more muscles .BTW,girls muscles build up very slow unless u take extremely hard core protein shakes.Thanks for ready.
(Sorry my english grammar sucks!!)

Opposite Directions (Chapter 1)

Intro:Have anyone of you ever try to step out of  friendzone with the best friend or friend that you really like?To be honest I almost did but I did not cause you want to know why?That guy was douche bag,faggot and idiot.This guy does not deserve to have any women he wanted so let me share you a story about women trying to find true love but she was bump by three men a bisexual,a gay,a gold digger.Not me .I am just a story teller that's  all .Sharing stories was part  of my job.

   Jessica Abrosen was a 25 years old women that have a successful job as the head of the pastry at Perkasa Hotel.She was half Filipino and half French and she currently working at Kundasang ,Sabah.Well Kundasang was a place which was mostly mountain climbing and a beautiful place to enjoy the view ,weather that always main 20 degree .In a workplace she have only one best friend which is Richard Johnson was an Indonesian .They meet since they were in ATI  as an exchange students in this collage and they share an apartment to live Jessica was always comfortable with Richard even she only walk around the house wearing  undergarments only .Because Richard was gay so ,Jessica always feels so secure and she do not mind if Richard carry her and hugging her around.But people at the workplace always question their relationship which other .Sometimes they hold hands which each other and give each other a warm hugs .For them only lovers do that.As Jessica turning 25 years old and still a virgin and never been kiss on the lips before,she felt like a fresh flower that is dying but not blooming any more. She always been single because she have no confident in love and she always scare of taking the risk to be in a relationship because her past relationship she been dump and been taking advantage because of her looks,naiveness and innocence .She been single almost 8 years!During these 8 years she really change .She started to take care her appearance,become stronger and successfully in a career but she feel lonely as she grow day by day like a flower petals keep falling..Richard keep asking her to go on a date but she really do not dare because the skin ship and the warmness that Richard gave to her was hard to look for it.Sometimes she prays that Richard can really change sides for her.But she know it was impossible to happen .For her feeling Richard was enough but her age start to remind her that time is running and rose will be a cactus.In the same time Richard has pray for a guy for her that can take care of her .Well one day there was a news of a new chef has come .Richard was more excited than Jessica ,he was bored to death watching the same men at his work place and most of them are straight and he did try encounters some of the tourist but mostly one night stand.When the new chef has arrive everyone welcome him but Jessica just smile at him and move to work .And it caught the eye of the chef .The chef name is Zachary Lee was a Malaysian Chinese ,he was very charming .all the workers in the hotel was amaze by his looks and Richard when wild for once.But when he look at Jessica ,he realize it was her time to shine instead of hiding herself and the beauty that she had will be a waste..

  After that day.It was Jessica and Richard off day,so they went to Kota Kinabalu City for movie ,food and some shopping .While they were on the mall Richard started to look at Jessica by the way she dress up.In his mind said ,'Poor women,the way she dress up like an 35 years old just finish hitch hiking.Eww!Should help her out ,No wonder she always alone such a waste!'

So Richard decided to be Jessica stylist for a day ,by hoping her can impress Zachary .

'Hey Jess!' .He shouted.

'What Richard?! 

'Can 'redesign' you because you look outdated'

'What?!You never complain the way I dress !Why all of the sudden'

'Well Jess as you best friend ,I am worried about you.I mean look at you .You have a nice body and you do not want to show it!How long took you to lost that 30 kg and be this!You need to show it Jess.Seriously ,you are running out of time .You are still a virgin and been sleeping with countless men and lucky-lilly ,I did not have AIDS!'

'But why Richard ?I do not feel lonely when you are around me and the love you give me is make me happy.'

'Jessica babe.If one day I left you by any reasons .Who will take care of you?I need to fine you a men my dear.I love you too.'

'Okay then,I just take your advice,and please do not give me anything weird to wear it.Or else I force to wear it in the hotel all the time!'

Jessica punch him at the back .

'Ouch!Ok do not worry I watch more magazines than you!'

The Happy Princess (Chapter 1)

Once upon a time ,there was a princess name 'Donna',she live in a Kingdom of Lambazania.She have a big brother which known as the Prince of Earl that live in another kingdom that he build by himself in an island of Eprica.

and 2 older sisters and Princess Diana still live in the Kingdom of Lambazan and Princess Monica love in the Kingdom of Air Asia ,all of Princess Donna brother and Sister are married left her only who still looking for her prince.

Princess Donna was a bit chubby and taller then her sisters but she have a very long curly hair and a adorable smile.She always waiting for a prince charming day by day and when she turn 18 ,it was her time to get married and build her own kingdom with her new prince.It was a royal tradition that a royal family was married ,they must build their own kingdom.

So,Princess Donna travel all over her kingdom everyday to help her people with her horse name Persona which is white and have dark hair all over it.One day,she saw old lady was begging for help because she need money for food ,so Princess Donna help the old lady and bring her to the castle.Princess Donna give her a place to stay for a while and take care of her as she take care of grandmother but the old lady is dying because she is too sick .The old lady last words to Princess Donna and she said ,'Princess Donna ,u are sweet and kind girl ,one day u will find ur prince that will never judge you and always take care of in another kingdom and he will be using a dark horse to come to your kingdom ,one day.'

L.O.V.E Girl

Was so lame when u found out the guy who hold ur hand doesnt want u to be his women like WTH?!

Seriously ,he touch u for no reason~!Is a date suppose to be like that!Oh well forget about it!Move on people!

I wonder girls love skinny guy or fat guy or!tough guy!

IF me i love Tough men because i am a muscle freak person haha i ever accidently drool while watching Captain America trailer!Like WTF!

Seriously talk about serious topic now.Why girls love to be called chicks??I mean is that mean Lil Chickens!?

Just curious for a word i prefer use teh word Liang Moi!Means beautiful^^

U see i like a dude but dont dare to tell him maybe i am nervous or trying to run away!By the way my dude Chong get accident thank God he is still alive but pity him too ,Bless him~

Insanely busy school days forgot to iron my uniforms and do my History .just so happy for 2ne1 new song because they kinda give u taht confident!

Born This Way~!

I get bullied since i was a kid like i wanted to play with this bunch girls i though they were nice but end up they rejected me and i end up playing my scooter all a lone and gloomy all the time!Lol!Is ok and then when i was form two people called me a turtle people i hunch my back all the time and after that they call me fat and ugly .There was one they said my sit was disgusting because that place was fat people have seated .After that my gay friend expose me on FB about my diet .WTF every girl wanna be pretty!.Lol!Fine !Ok Bullies i hope that u guy have a good life never care but after i graduate from Middle School .I realize those people who bullied never had a perfect life like serious the one who keep cailling ,me fat end up fatter then me and then the other one get bullied too haha people gives her nick name and she dont have a friend and after that people called her slut seriously people think she is ugly !Opps!

Who is the fat and ugly girl now .I know i am not because I'm beautiful and u are pitiful!

Oh well God Bless u all bullies!But still i will always be an anti bully person seriously go bully people till they cry like How Old Are ?!U are not in middle school ok dont be a dumbass and act like u are the tough one Lol!Who cares idiots like u
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Sweet Dreams for An Immortal Soul..(Chapter 2)

After school,Jenny my crazy women bring me go shopping for prom dress and nick gives us a ride he just send us to the mall and he was rushing to the library to study.When we arrived at the mall I ask Jenny to get down from the car first because I have something important to say to Nick actually I just wanna tell him that I loved him and gives him a kiss on the cheek.I haven't give him my first kiss because we both promise each other that we will have our first kiss on after prom night ,honestly i wanna try have sex with him after prom night he make horny sometimes with his abs and lips it was just too sexy.Better I forget about it!Well after a little kiss his cheek, I when out from the car and wave slowly walk in to the mall and look for Jenny I walk slowly and I saw her waiting for me in a juice shop she was drinking a favorite papaya milky juice ,she said this juice can help her boobs grew bigger .I laughed.

Seems kinda bullshit but it was the truth that papaya can make girl boobs grew bigger.What the hell!Need to shop for dress means no more Papaya Talk!

'Hey Jane!Look there a dress that suits!',Jenny shouted for me maybe because she saw some dress.

So I followed her to the shop and I saw this Emerald Green dress that shows bare backs ,after seeing that dress we both when in to see it and then i saw Nicole she was trying the same dress but only the size were only smaller.She stares at me and see me from head to toe .Damm that hoE!I when near to her and say ,all she do is smile and keep posing and i can hear her friends started to giggles .Jenny just pull me out from the shop before i get embarrass again ,while i am walking from the shop i can feel like my tears started to come from my eyes and I can't believe i started to cry just because of that!Makes me feel sick and weak .Maybe i am too gentle to her and i know maybe one day Nick will married her.After that incident i am in the mood for shopping I called AJ to pick me up and Jenny went home with her parents.

I was staring in the window while i am in his car and the it was silent moment that time suddenly AJ break the silent by asking me why i am my eyes are so red.I just tell him nothing but it was really hard lie to him because me and him are best friends for so long .

'What wrong Jane?Don't lie to me I know there is something wrong happen.'

AJ asked.

' Well Nicole was at the mall today and she...'

'What that bitch do to you again?'

AJ was furious.

'She trying to show off her figure with a prom dress and her friends started to laughed at me maybe because the way i look or i go for shopping.'I replied.

'I kill them soon..'

AJ said it with a serious look.

'No AJ forget about it,nothing special about it just shits!'

'Haha,I was just Joking so you can feel better,hey you like getting thinner ,when did the last time u check your weight.' AJ asked.

'I think last month ,that time I am 62 kg well i hope this time i am 59kg .'

I replied.

'Even if u gain or lost weight for me you are still beautiful.'

AJ blush.

'Oh ok that kinda weird but yeah thanks man,you make me feel so much better now ,so wanna go Taekwando class now i feel like breaking some bricks .'

I think i am better now but still I never notice my body change after AJ told me about it and I am scare Nick will worried about me because I ask him not to fetch me and I need my time alone.When I arrive to the Taekwando class I am able to break a lot of bricks I go for hardcore this time .After one hour I realize my body cannot handle anymore and I feel a bit dizzy so i sit down and AJ when near to me and give a bottle of water .I wipe my face because of this sweat that all over my face and after that i saw my towel got some blood and AJ saw it and he keep staring at it and he seems speechless and i realize i have nosebleed.After I saw some blood ,feeling of nauseous after few minutes i collapse and everything was dark...

Sweet Dreams for An Immortal Soul..(Chapter 1)

Is a beautiful morning to go school today and i cant wait for Nick to pick up to school.Nick was the coolest boyfriend ever and he was tall,smart and handsome.He never cares about how i look with my messy hair ,pimple face and a i am kinda chubby my weight was like 62kg almost as heavy as him but he can still carry me for like 10 seconds.He was so perfect and i am so ugly we were like Ying and Yang.When he arrive school every morning I feel kinda weird walk beside him at first but slowly i get used to it .There was a head cheerleader always try to make me jealous in the morning and her name was Nicole ,she gets near to him and she give those bitchy stares.Just because i am a ugly girl doesn't matter i don't deserve a very handsome boyfriend but still I dont understand why Nick wanna be with me is because I'm smart or easy to play as a fool but Nick be with me for 3 years and he never give every burden i just trust him completely like i never doubt him cheating with other women.Well I never care about all this since his my senior year I am planning to get ready for my prom like losing some weight and fix my hair and face.I start my day with Biology class with Nick ,I cant wait to operate a frog with him after Bio it was Add Maths .Hate It!But Nick he loved it and he was so good at it ,when he put the pencil on his lips seems so hot like you wish you were that pencil.After Add Maths it was Art Class and I've to go alone while Nick goes to Chemistry Class.When I am in my Art Class i feel so free from all those stupid cheerleaders that stare at me every morning.My friend AJ which is my childhood friend was always there for me and we always talk bad things about cheerleaders .He always have this weird aura like he wears sweaters during summer and spring he kinda hated the sun ,his mom tell me that his skin cannot expose to sunlight so he keep wearing like that every time we go out.Since we were kids he keep wearing like things and i barely ever see many of skin he love to Opera songs which is weird with kids with his age and his face doesn't change much and his face was so pale and i ever accidentally touch his hands and it was cold like ice but I never wanna ask about it because I scare he get offended he is kinda sensitive and Emotional type of person.He don't smile much around his other friends but he seems more comfortable with me and there is some Emo kids like him because he is kinda like a dark force type of guy.During recess AJ was having his lunch is kinda sad to see him sit there alone so sometimes I when to sit there with him but he ask me to go away because he scare those cheerleader will made out a lot of different type of gossips to make me and Nick split is kinda hurts when I think about.When lunch time I sit with Nicks with bunch of his class clowns friends but they are smart but they are mean sometimes because they love to call me 'Nick's Donut' which means I am Nick's fat ass girl friend,I just smile and be patient luckily and didn't show him some of my Taekwando skills and some of my Kendo skills ,i am pretty good with my Katana .Well that how my school life today and after that I have Taekwando class at night with AJ ,I am not like other girls that go hang out with their girl friends i was into sport so i can lose weight that with me all these years but my fats so hard to go away it make me feel sick!But i never give up that easily ,I just feel sick this year i can't really exercise hard as usual and i have headache sometimes i have nosebleed too.Nick force me go to doctors but I see this as a small matter but if i wanna go i rather go with Jenny and AJ because they are my closest friends in the world ,Jenny is my BBF she is cute and sexy .she was talented In singing and she have this cute eye shadow but still she is kinda have this weird fantasy that she will have sex with aliens.LOL!Crazy women!I still love her my sweet Jenny.